Seba-stien: woke up this morning with an urgent need to run. His books behind him, he has not picked one up because had no need for them; and would have contemplated the fact that ‘the books are behind him at least now’ if it was not his urgent need to run. Seba-stien has no jogged in three months and has both the chest and the stomach to show for it. He lies under his bed, tells himself truths as he dazes, but lies under his sheets unready, and now ready to attempt to run. He has a shirt on, an obvious, that he wore for a whole night but he sees no need to change. His face carries the weight, the sediments that come with hours of not being mobile. His eyes are somewhat not open and his shorts not on. He walks to the 4 drawers that keep his clothes and sees a pair of shorts, which he grabs. He puts them on. He finds socks but does not put them on. He keeps them on his bed. He walks into the hall, through the hall, and into the bathroom. He sees his toothbrush but does not grab it. He sees soap but does not use it. And despite, he stares at his face in the mirror, contemplating what he has become, because: Seba-stien to Seba-stien at least on the outside is a recollection of yesterdays rather than an observation of his today. He passes his hand through his hair which he has not washed and goes back to the room, through the hall to the room. He puts on his socks and his sneakers. He then turns to the mirror in the room. He looks at his reflection because Seba-stien to Seba-stien is a recollection of yesterdays rather than an observation of his today. Tomorrow he will wake up with the idea that he is, in terms of how he looks, as he was yesterday and it’s something that he’s accepted with the same pragmatism as the existence of bugs or the idea that ‘human beings die’. He has no woman. He isn’t a husband. So: he waits. He lives in a paradox, a human thing, where waiting is as poetic as being, and the sound of when one waits, the sound of ‘as a student studies’ is as loud as ‘as he eats’. Or: ‘as she eats’. But not: ‘as we eat’. He wants to eat. He feels an urgent need to run, but feels his stomach need to eat. He feels he needs to, as he feels his need.
He was just asleep. And so, he runs.
